haihh...mostly post aku suma post depress, tension, emo etc....if im not mistaken since august i think...maybe cz that problem la...made my happiness fade away....huhuhu...this is all my fault and it comes from me...i made this trouble, no one else to be blame...i myself made my life so0o0oo chaos and lonely...org tua2 ckp, penyesalan tiada gunanya...benda dah jadi, nk buat camana lagi...klu la boleh ulang semula masa...huhu...n kalau la malang itu berbau....
kdg2 aku tido, dan berharap agar bila aku bangon semula, semua ini hanya mimpi buruk semata...tapi tidakk...semuanya berlaku, for reall!!!...huhu...ntah la..skrg aku mcm dah tak kesah most part in my life...im lost....exam is around da corner...i dont even care!!..i do care alot but there some other things i have to think about...that trouble that distract my mind...things that not settle yet till now...huhuhu...aku dah tak kesah dah pasal studies aku ni, camana mo buat??!!..huhu...maybe cz i mess up from the beginning....and i dont know where to start back...??
time2 mcm ni la, aku perlukan kekuatan, semgt, teman, pendapat dsbnya....tapi aku tak jumpa smua tu...hidup kat sini, mcm yg aku citer dulu..."kau2 aku2"...ada jg la aku kongsi2 with certain2 people ttg mslh aku ni...kurang sket la...tp ntah la...aku habis fkrn uda, apa mo buat...sometimes im crying, no one know..."nobody care if ur life is miserable, so u must as well be happy"...but i just cant pretend im happy....:::( ...benda paling susah dilakukan di dunia ini bg aku adalah "pretending"...pretending that u ok, ur fine which actually ur not,pretending ur not in trouble, no problems which u have tonnes of probs...but i have to do so...i dont have any choices....
seriously, takda semgt nk study dah...hilang nta kemana....i just want to have fun!!!...forget all my troubles...huhu...tak tau la pointer for this sem apa nk jadi...aku try apa yg termampu dgn keadaan aku mcm ni...
Doakan la kejayaan aku k..... :)
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